at this point i am fully committed to this treat and the stakes are high, ok? I mean in these uncertain moments I am at risk of disappointing the most important person in my life: myself. so, I had to do what anyone in this situation must do -- trudge on. I mustered all of the "f*ck around and find out energy" within me (which isn't as hard as I'm making it seem, I have a bunch of it) and see if this banana was going work.